A Happy Mother's Day

I lost 2 pounds this week. I haven't been feeling great about myself and it is hard for me not to beat myself up because I am not perfect at following the weight loss "plan". I do well but not as well as I feel I could. This has been such a surreal experience. The other day I saw myself in the mirror in the rest room in the building where my office is. I looked like a little kid wearing adult clothes. My shirt was big and baggy as were my pants. That evening I tried on several outfits for my daughter and she told me that I look "aweful". I had purchased new, smaller clother a month ago and I was realizing that they are already too big (I think I actually purchased clothes that were a size too big). What to do? So I went shopping yesterday and purchased several items of clothing that actually fit me. I am still shopping in the plus size section; however, I can fit into clothes that are 4 sizes smaller than when I started this program (that may not seem like a lot but it is in plus sizes). I purchased pants without an elastic waistband! Last night I wore my dress shoes to an event where Elisabeth was recognized with another scholarship. The shoes were falling off my feet--I could hardly walk! I think I need a smaller shoe size also. Is this real? Am I really shrinking? I am! I have a ways to go but I feel happy in the success that I've already experienced. I feel so encoraged by the new clothes (I also know that they will be too big in a while) that I feel motivated and encouraged to do better on the plan. Alexis and I cleaned out my closet and put all of my "big clothes" in a bag to take to the D.I. I said good bye to clothes I've worn for over 10 years. Now I have lots of room for new clothes. So...for anyone who reads this who sees me often, you know why you see me in the same three outfits everytime you see me. This is a happy mother's day. Thanks, Elisabeth, Alexis and Avanlee for all of your support and encouragement! I love you!